Tuesday, May 24, 2011

What's Missing?


"Everything you need you already have. You are complete right now, you are a whole, total person, not an apprentice person on the way to someplace else."
-- Wayne Dyer

According to the above quote, absolutely nothing is missing.  Then why do I go through so many days of my life feeling empty and incomplete?  Maybe I am just running on empty.  A good night's sleep goes a long way toward having a positive attitude and seeing myself for who I truly am. 

All too often, I star the day off with the thought that I'm not doing enough... that I am not enough.  I come down so hard on myself for having a messy house, kids who don't sleep through the night, weight to lose, spending too much at the grocery store, etc.  If I was still working, my ugly inner voice would be saying I don't know enough, I need to speak up, I should work faster and smarter, etc.  I foolishly think life will be better once I have the moving boxes unpacked, the kitchen painted, time to exercise... you get the idea. Why do I do this to myself?

I want to enjoy now. I want to live in the moment, not live with an eye on a more perfect future me.  I want to love myself for who I am today, even with all my perceived flaws. Most of all, I want to stop looking for what's missing and start appreciating what I have. That means giving myself credit where credit is due, not looking to others for approval but finding satisfaction within, and remembering that I have special gifts and talents to offer.  I am unique and who I am is who I am supposed to be!

It is critical for me to change my perspective for two reasons.  My current attitude isn't getting me anywhere, that's for sure.  I spend every day feeling inadequate, which leads me to my second point.  A mother who is not confident and happy can not possibly be the best mother she is capable of being.  I want to instill a sense of self-reliance and positive thinking in my children.  I want to teach them compassion and strength and that starts with me.

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